Aku dan Suami, semenjak zaman bercinta lagi kami bukan jenis yang menonjolkan kasih sayang di hadapan umum. Maksud aku the type of couple yang selalu berbalas-balas komen cinta di laman web sosial, yang selalu post lagu khas untuk kekasih, yang kat Facebook dia lebih banyak gambar kekasih dari gambar dia sendiri -__-. We're cool with the way we are and in fact dulu aku macam annoyed betul kalau tengok pasangan bercinta (especially kalau baru sekadar boyfriend girlfriend) yang berbalas-balas I love you I miss you di medium yang terbuka, yang of course boleh dibaca oleh orang lain juga. I feel like screaming, "Hey, do you know there's a thing called, SMS/WhatsApp/BBM?! Tak payahlah nak bercinta kat sini kowwwtttt~~".
That was me back then.
However, eversince I got pregnant, out of the blue, I've become so sensitive (and maybe a bit immature) to the extend that suddenly I feel sad when seeing other husbands showing their love toward their wives in public. I feel heart broken. I feel unloved. I feel unappreciated.
And straightaway attack my husband :/
"Awak ni tak sayang kita ke?"
He, of course shocked and dumb-founded for being attacked out of nowhere, asked me back,
"Laa, ni kenapa tiba-tiba je ni? Pagi tadi elok je.."
"Awak tak pernah pun bagi ayat cinta-cinta kat Facebook kita.."
He laughed, and make me looked even silly, "Kenapa ni? Tak pernah-pernah pun macam ni.."
"Suami kawan kita selalu bagi ayat cinta-cinta kat Facebook isteri dia tau.. Awak takde pun.." GOD, I AM SILLY.
"Awak nak saya buat macam tu ke..?"
"Benda-benda macam tu.. biarlah kita dua je yang tahu, Sayang.." He continued, softly.
Already feel embarassed for being such a baby, I just keep silent. And started to think on the rationalilty of my childish act. And I finally came to my senses, a sense that I always have before. WHAT HAPPEN TO ME?? T_T
I told my sister about this last night, and she just laughed histerically saying, "Kak Una kenapa boleh jadi annoying macam tu??"
Betul lah. Kenapa dengan aku ni? What happened to The Cool Husna? (if I ever be that cool -_-). Tssk. Pembawakan budak agaknya T_T
Well, obviously my husband is just not into Public Display of Affection (PDA). I always knew it. People have their own ways to express their feelings to the loved ones. And that's the way we are, the way we always are and what makes us comfortable with this relationship. Where action is louder than words. If others choose a PDA, it's because that's the way they are. Let it be. People are just.. different. So why bother? :)
P/S: Tapi betul lah, semenjak pregnant ni tiba-tiba aku jadi suka benda yang aku tak pernah suka. Is it for good, or it's just for temporary? Because I've started to miss the old me already T_T