Thursday, November 5, 2015

Bersalin Depan Orang Yang Disukai

Viral betul cerita doktor handsome Hospital Serdang tu. Mulanya tengok satu gambar rasa okay laa ada rupa la. Then tengok his Instagram, hmmmph rasa biasa biasa je kot. Maybe because,

1. Laki aku lagi handsome kot kahkahkah please bear with me.

2. Aku tak suka lelaki yang caption Instagram macam awek awek. Major turn-off.

3. Untuk stranger ni, I'm more interested in good looking woman compared to good looking man. Lelaki handsome takdelah menarik sangat, sebab kekacakan di mata aku bergantung pada banyak faktor lain. Personaliti, cara tulisan, cara pembawakan. For example, dulu aku rasa David Beckham ni biasa biasa je, I mean he has the look but that's it. Bila dia dah ada anak deret deret baru rasa David Beckham ni handsome sangat. Sebab tengok the way dia connect dengan anak anak, the way dia tunjuk dia sayang his wife, something like that la. Tapi kalau tengok perempuan cantik, terus rasa sangat cantik tak payah tengok personaliti sangat pun #feminist. Perempuan cantik memang sangat menarik minat aku, terutama kalau yang bertudung, fashionable tapi masih sangat sopan emmmm rasa nak usha sampai esok je HAHAHA #stalker.

Anyway that's not the point. Sekarang ni aku nak highlight on bersalin disambut doktor kacak ni. Aku malas nak cakap pasal hukum hakam, sebab dah ramai orang yang lebih arif bercakap pasal ini. Cuma aku rasa nonsense yang kau rasa dia kacak lepas tu tergedik gedik nak bersalin mengangkang depan dia. Sebab, based on my experience, I was at my ugliest state when I was in labor! I'm talking about the process, our condition during contraction, masa tengah meneran nak beranak tu. You know.

Before bersalin dulu, aku berulang kali bagitahu H, just sit beside me, holding my hand, bagi sokongan moral. Don't you dare pergi ke depan kaki aku haha. Even dengan Suami pun, aku rasa tak sanggup nak mengangkang depan dia and biar dia tengok sebijik sebijik kepala baby keluar from my hoohaa, because I WOULD DIE OF EMBARASSMENT!! He will be traumatized, I will be traumatized if I was him!

Masa nak bersalin Ammar Yusuf, my cousin-in-law was an anesthetist at the hospital, she's the one yang suntik epidural for me. At that moment I prayed hard that she won't be around at the time I need to give birth, it will be so embarrassing! My sister is also a doctor, only that she's not a gynae. Kalau dia gynae pun aku tak rasa aku nak bersalin disambut oleh dia hahaha, malulah! The gynae will see all our private parts, all the flabby skin, all the cellulite we have been hiding all these while. Dan masa bersalin itu dengan badan kita yang sweating pig, dengan rambut mengerbang macam hantu Kak Limah, belum masuk lagi bab kalau terberak masa tengah teran tu (not me, thank God!). Tak mungkin aku nak expose semua itu pada someone yang I kenal, or worse, someone I love. In this case, it's just funny that kau suka kat doktor handsome tu, kau nak suruh dia tengok segala benda buruk yang sepatutnya disembunyikan itu. Kalau aku, I would only give birth in front of someone I will never have to see again for the rest of my life HAHAHA.

Back to my labor story, after several attempts of pushing Adam Muaz, the doctor kata dah nampak kepala baby and dia panggil H to see so that he can convinced me to push harder. Eventhough I was in pain at that moment, aku betul betul harap dia tak tengok OMG NOOOOO! Well he witnessed everything anyway, it wasn't that bad. In fact, all husbands should be there when the wives giving birth, you need to see the process, you need to witness everything and acknowledged every pain we've endured so that you won't be complaining if we asked for a new diamond necklace or anything hehehe.

What I'm trying to say is, it was ridiculous that you have a crush on the doctor and you want him to be your gynae. Not only that it is sinful, it is also not normal at all. If I had a crush on someone (given a situation that I'm not married), I want him to see me at my best, I want him to see me at my prettiest, at my most outstanding behaviour. Giving birth moment is definitely not one of them. Now that I'm married, I still love to look pretty for my husband, I want him to see me at my best, I want to always look good for him inside and outside. Of course we cannot be perfect all the time, but at least I'm here trying my best and I have no regret at all. Things you do for your loved ones :')


2 comments:

Nursaila Norman said...

huhu! sama lah dengan di sini. saya prefer orang yang saya takkan jumpa dah lepas tu. walaupun suami sendiri, tetapppp malu. sebab tu kot saya susah betul nak terima homebirth. husband sambut? wooahh. huhu! rezeki jugak dapat doc perempuan, yelah hosp gov kan. hmmmm.. :P

Ayuni A. said...

We are in the same boat esp no.2 and no.3 hahaha..

I tak faham kenapa viral sangat pasal doc hensem tu. I mean fine if he has looks, but then that's it la. Tak sangka pulak sanggup buat statement nak dia jadi gynae whatsoever. Haih laa..ntahapape.